Its been quite sometimes that i last wrote an entry. I've been sick for a few days now and I have yet to recover. A lot of things are not going well for me right now.



Firstly since the last entry everything seems to just go wrong. Here are the detail of events that are not going that well:

• My workload has been piling up and I haven't had a good sleep for sometime now


• I just been fine with 200bucks by some motherf*$^#@ whom i didn't even have the chance to give my statement. Ermm the helpline was indeed a hindrance. They never got back to me so it's true that they just wanted to fine and hear no reason.


• I'm broke for this month.

Well, things are not exactly. The workload is piling up but it's still manageable but the hearing of losing good quality sleep just sucks! Haha! Well the fine is a bit heavy on my pocket but i will pay it anyway. The thing that pisses me off is that i called the agency for feedback and also sent an email but i have yet to get any reply from them. Well thats just life, some people are only interested in only getting money but i hope god strike them with lightning because the way they do things are unorthodox. I don't mind getting fine for the wrong thing that i have done but this incidennt is something i wasn't even wrong to start with.

Anyways, next saturday i'm finally gonna get my hands on the p.s.p!Haha! Finally its time that i got my hands on it. I waited for it for a long time and it's gona be a reality. Ermm, the next plan that i have is kept for end of this year! I'm gona go for a holiday in Thailand. Hope eveything goes according to plan. That's about it for now, see you soon.

Signing Out for your friendly artist:

Potraitofaliar

(This blog is dedicated to my dearest Mom, Siti Salbiah)

Hi it's me again.. I'm still sick and have yet to recover. I'm down with this irritating flu and my body feel very heaty and i have a lot of flam in my body. Ermm yesterday i didn't went to work too sick to even go to work. Yesterday was my mom birthday, she turned 47 already and i thank god for making her living till this day.

I want both my parents to live as long as god permit them to see all their children make it in their life. So that they can enjoy the success of their fruits of their labour, knowing that all their sacrifices all this years toiling day and night just to make sure they we got all the attetntion that a child need when they are growing up and even when they are grown up, the parent still worry about their their children because it's their nature. I don't blame them though because someday, i'm gona be a parent myself one day. So whatever my parent instil to me when i was kid, i'm gona do the same to my children.

Well, i'm naturally very close to my dearest mom. She has been the best companion in my entire 21years of my life, she has been the person that i look for comfort, the person that sometimes i fight (words and view that is not through the first aite!) , my confidante and also like my girlfriend that will never leave me. Haha!! Well, sometimes i wish i could be the perfect son for my parent especially that i'm the eldest of four children.

I don't want to burden my family anymore so now that i started working, i try to contribute as much as i can for the family. I want to take the responsibility in the house to take care of my siblings since my parent are ageing, its high time for me to start taking the role and be a more responsible person. I ought to have a shared responsibilty of my dad, i can't leave him to handle all the problem in the family because he's not getting younger anymore and his strength is not as tough as he was in his younger days.

Although i'm grown up, i make it a point never to put my family aside especially my dad. I still have some respect for him as he is still the headmaster of the house, every decision is still his. I'm just like an advisor to him if he's unsure but my dad has seen more and live much more longer than me and in particular has vast experience in life. Irony of things is that most of the time it's not he who seek my views but instead it's me who ask him for advise and views. Haha!

I wonder what my life would be without my parents and my siblings. I love all my siblings and i'm very concern about them, especially if a mishap happens to them. Well, im quite protective about my siblings and i could give everything up just for their well being. Dear brothers, I just want all of you to know that though sometimes i'm very harsh and likes to disturb all of you and you might think that i'm trying to poke my nose into your affair, i'm not! It's just that i care about all of you. I just want all of you to remember that my doors are always open for all of you if you ever encounter any problems and need someone to talk to. Though i might never show it, i do have your interest at my heart.

Well today, blog is a bit emotional as since a few days as our family just had a test from ALLAH S.W.T and we all pull through together as a family and i'm thankful for every single moment that we spent together as a whole and complete family. Thank you ALLAh as only you know the strength and weakness of a person and everything happen for a reason. It's because of this facts that maybe our family bond are strong again. Thank you once again ALLAH.

Signing out from your friendly artist: Potraitofaliar

im sick!!

Hi its me once again and today is the middle of the week that is Wednesday. I'm feeling unwell today, I caught a flu and my throat feels funny even harder to swallow my own salivia and my body is a bit feverish. Instead of having people feeling concern about me, all that i got was a pissed off text message from someone i know about a few days ago.

How quickly people change, one moment they are nice to you and the other moment they are nasty to you. Nonetheless, that's how human is I guess and it's all because of a phone call. Let me ask you a question right here?? Do you need to have a reason as to why you want to call a friend?? I don't know about most of the people thinking in general but if it was me, i don't mind friends calling me for no reason and just want to chat with me. The funny thing about the whole situation is I'm being labelled "Crazy Man" but it don't matter i just take the blame anyway.

I just wish that time makes that particular person a better and a whole person, maybe its my way or my attitude or something about the way that i am makes that person for reacting the way they are. Man, this fever is killing me!! It's playing with my brains and every part of my body is feeling low. Even as I'm typing now my hands are feeling like a bit heavy to even type although normally it isn't that hassle. I'm feeling a bit chilly right now and i wish i this whole sickness could just go away.

Hmm, for the past two days, there isn't much work done on this vessel and its quite relax for the moment but i heard work gona resume soon. Well that's ok because at least i have something to do than rather irritate some people right. I think if you are being truthful to people with feelings, most of the time you won't get the same kind of reaction that you give to the intended person.

Well life isn't a bed of roses after all because underneath that roses lies the torn which we all always tend to overlook. Those shows we see on the telly are all fake only to give us false hope. Anyway weekend is round the corner and i don't want to be a wet blanket so take care and avoid sickness aite.

Signing out, from your friendly artist: Potraitofaliar

Fetish

Hello its me once again, still at the open sea. Boring! I know that everytime i write an entry it has to be in the open sea but nonetheless i can't complain anything. It's my rice bowl whether i like ot or not.

You know what?? I downloaded a picture of Alicia Keys and i think she has that sexy smile & looks which makes me smitten to her. I wish that in Singapore there is a girl just like her. I think i'm having a fetish for her because ever since my schooling time i tend to get a bit excited whenever there's a new single from her and i kind of listen to it over & over again. I never even got tired of listening to her songs ( Oh Alicia if only you could hear how my heart felt for you! Haha). Though that will never ever gona happeen between me and her i just wana savour this fantasy while i still can and let it be just a fantasy.

I hope to find a goood wife material. Well, looks don't really matter because if i want to find a wife she must have the mentality of being a homely type of girl, the one who cherish me during my high and low period of times( not only the happier times dude! ) and also who REALLY REALLY LOVE ME. I plan to get married in my late 20's. The range of ideal age for me to get married would be around the age of 25 - 28 because by then everything i hope by god's will that i have stabilise myself and as well as my income. The mentality of starting a family is not there yet, its not that i don't want to be tied down but i just think i'm too young to even start thinking about all those.

In the evening, i met my army mates and we had a chat and dinner. I do sure have a lot of catching up to do with them, not that it's important but hey to be more informed is better than not be informed right?? Anyway, thats about it for my day today.

From your friendly artist: Potraitofaliar

Fetish

Hi its me once again..still onboard this vessel. Same old place, same old story nothing change so far still stuck at this darn project. I think working on this vessel has taught me a valuable lesson that is not to try and please anyone. The politic of working in this place is a bit more complex than i think it was.

Anyways, i won't let that dampen my spirit. I must persevere and keep on fighting for what i think is right from the safety aspect as i found out that a certain people don't like my style of working but what the heck?! I don't take orders from no one. I'm getting fed up with people showing their stupid faces in front of me and backstabbing. Well that happens anywhere so i just got to keep my temper in check and stay focus on what i am doing. Its already been almost three weeks that i'm doing this project at Bukom. I hope the work finish fast and we all can return to the fairway so that i can enjoy my damn weekend.

In 3 days time is my mom birthday and i have yet to buy her a present. I'm still figuring out what to buy..Haha! Hmm..i just wana go out and relax my mind because ever since i finish my army i haven't had a proper rest. I want go out and just enjoy myself. I also notice that ever since finishing my N.S i've been putting on weight. Gone was the day where i was a bit slimmer and fitter than i was now. I got to do something about it but as a matter of facts i'm too tired after work to even go for a jog. I used to jog every night but now i hardly even do it anymore.

January is a long month and i hate longer month because the longer it is the dreadier it becomes. February is a nice month though. Its short and as well as fast. So with tis i end my story for the day because there's nothing much to say anyway. Before i go, i will put a picture of my lil buddy that is my laptop, my work diary, my Parker pen which i just bought yesterday and also my working camera. Enjoy!!

Signing out from your friendly artist: Potraitofaliar.

Sunday morning stuck in the office getting, more & more bored as time passes by. I don't really know when was the last time that i ever wake up so late just to enjoy my precious sleeping time( Yawns!). Yeps still the same out in the open sea except that today is a cloudy day which sums up quite the feeling that i have right now. Haha!
I probably won't be going out today because i'm too exhausted to try and enjoy my weekend. I think spending time on my cosy bed would be a wiser choice since i'm quite exhausted. I really hope that this project finish really fast. You know what?? I really misss the time when i was just a recruit where i slog it out from monday to friday and i got the weekend to enjoy. Damn! But nonetheless now that im working and the pay is quite high compare to those days so i think its a win-win situation. Like they say: "You win some, you lose some".
I can't wait for my pay day which is like the end of the month( yeah, yeah i know its still quite early) because i gona buy my p.s.p which could come in handy to kill my BOREDOM! Especially in times like this(Haha). Luckily for me i stil have this lil laptop that is always around with me wherever i go (thanks buddy!). Hmm...in this situation i am right now esp. onboard the vessel i have a few people who is not giving me the cooperation that is needed. Well some people find me a nuisance but i think i'm of a caretaker because if anything goes wrong down here even though i do my utmost very best, who gets the blame?? ME!! So you shithead (yeah you if you ever got the chance to pass by this entry *%#k you!).
Hmm, i kinda feel confused right now as i don't know what to get for my mom as her birthday is coming closer. I really want to buy her a present this year to keep it as a momento but i just can't figure out what to buy for her! (ARGGHHH!) someone please help me help is WANTED down down here!! Its been bugging me for quite a few days and i tend to rack my brains out thinking about it. I'm going NUTS!

Signing out, from your friendly artist: POTRAITOFALIAR

Me Work

Well, well, well..Hmm manange to write an entry again today [Haha, must be skiving on my job huh??]. Ermm i'm not in fact i've done everything already. Kinda have a free time now. By the way yesterday was Islam New Year [ In case you don't know!]. Such a meaningful day on the Islamic Calendar. Well, i have a resolution for the New Year though i'm late by a day but im just gona state down my resolution anyway:

1. Be patient. [ As i'm always impatient with most things esp. if things are not done properly in my standard and people with attitude usually gets on my nerves and i must remind myself to stay cool.]

2. Cherish the person around me. [ Though i am always concern about the people surrounding me, i tend not to spent time with most of them esp seeing them in person, i will try if my time permit me INSYALLAH]

3. Solat. [ My pillar of strenght. Whenever i'm lost or consufed and esp. in dire straits, that is the only thing on earth that i could seek solace. I do pray but i somehow can't make it for certain hours of the prayers as my job is always on the move i can't do it regularly. ]

4. Savings. [ I'm gonna have to start saving for the rainy weather. I want to start a family but if i don't start savings now, then i can forget about it! Haha]

I think thats the 4 resolution which i think is THE MOST IMPORTANT for me. I do have loads of resolution but whats the point if i have loads but achieve none?? ( see my point?? ). Hmm, just now i happen to pass by the television and guess what i saw on the telly? Rossa, she's a singer from Indonesia. Somehow i can't get enough of her. I just think that she's just HOT! Hell yeah,u heard me.

Well i'm in the middle of the sea while writing this entry. It's been almost a month that i'm being posted here and there's noting to see except for the sea and the big vessel but when its working time i have to be a bit strict as safety matters is my concern. So far while i'm here everything has been smooth sailing except for a bit of this and that. So far so good and i have to thank God for watching over everything. Hmm....before i finnish this entry, i'm gona put a sneak picture of me in my gearing suit during working enjoy..

Hi, my name is Syamsul. I'm 21 yrs of age and i'm turning 22 soon. Well, i'm just your average guy, i'm tall and big (mostly like a giant you see, as my height is 1.82 & errm...my weight?? You can see it from the pics that im gona attached to it). The first light on earth that i saw was on the 13th March 1986( that was the day i was born if you didn't know! HAHA!) on this lil red dot on the world map which is Singapore.

Hmm, well I am the eldest of the siblings. In my family consists of 6 person which is me,and my three younger brother and as well as my mom & dad (poor mom she's the only female in the house, imagine what she must going thru wit all the males in the house...I love you mom if you ever got a chance to read it).

Growing up years has been a long and memorable journey. My first school was PAP Kindergarten @ Teban Gardens ( Year 1991-1992 ) Merlimau Primary School ( Year 1993-1998) , Boon Lay Secondary School (Year 199-2002), ITE Bukit Batok (Year 2004-2005). I just finish my duty as a citizen on this lil red dot island which is National Service(N.S) . Its mandatory for every citizen of this country. I served the Army and i just finish serving 2 years of my N.S last 2 month. Right now currently i'm already working as a Safety Supervisor.

Well thats basically the hard facts that you probably want to know about me. As times passes by, i will try to keep updating my blog aite (that depends if i'm not busy with another project ok?? Actually i'm lil tied down right now but i manage to squeeze time out of this hectic schedule..haha).